This year, more than ever before, I was forced to look at myself in the mirror and ask myself who I am and who I want to be. I was forced to take a decision: Do I want to continue as before or do I want to change? Do I want to stay in the Known or am I ready to step into the Unknown?
This year, I found a place within me that is overflowing with love and compassion, with joy, with peace, with happiness. Sometimes I don’t feel it so much, but I know it’s always there. I found a place of calmness within me that keeps me centered wherever I go (meditating helps ).
This year, I learned (and am still learning) how not to dwell in the past and how not to live in fear of the anticipated future, but to live in the moment. I learned that there is nothing but the NOW. I learned that there is nothing more important, nothing more true and real than what I feel in each and every moment. There is no future and no past. I learned, more than ever before, to find beauty in every moment, in every little detail – in everything.
This year, I met so many amazing people and shared so many incredible, breathtaking, surreal, touching, challenging, exciting, intimate moments that I still can’t believe they all happened within 12 months or even less.
This year, I know, I made friends for life. I became even closer to the people I already knew, I shared most intimate thoughts and feelings with people I will maybe never see again. I became friends with my mother after many years of dishonesty and distrust.
And most importantly, this year, I became friends with myself. I learned to love and trust myself. I learned to listen to myself, to my needs and desires. I started accepting myself as I am and things as they are.
Right now I’m in a deeply emotional state, because I will leave Vienna and my family and friends in Bavaria again for what now seems like a really long period of time. With more love and deeper friendships comes also more pain and sadness when it’s time to say goodbye.
I am overwhelmed by how much I love the people around me – the close friends, the people I see only three or four times a year, and the people I only ever met once but felt a connection with right away. You are all amazing and I love you!
I’m SO PROUD of all of you who are actively working on yourselves, you who are facing your traumas and fears, you who are trying to make the world a better place, you who are following your hearts, you who are aligning your actions with your needs and desires, you who are seeking and speaking the truth.
Thank you for listening to me, for inspiring me, for challenging me.
Thank you for being you!